Friday, October 12, 2012

Synchronicity....Connections....2012...and The Awakening of Humanity

Hello All.  Yes, it has again been a few months since my last post.  As many of you are aware, when my Awakening/Enlightenment first began, I felt like I had to share EVERYTHING.  As days, months, and now years have gone by, I have found myself not sharing that much anymore.

Initially I envisioned putting all of this in a book.  That may still happen.  Lately I have been feeling very stuck, and very overwhelmed.  Sometimes I wish I could yell at the top of my lungs, WAKE THE FUCK UP......PLEASE......DON'T YOU SEE WHAT IS HAPPENING......CAN'T YOU SEE WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO US......WHAT WE ARE DOING TO OURSELVES, EACH OTHER....THE PLANET.

Like many of us "1111ers" initially I felt like I was going crazy.  I feel like this Awakening/Enlightenment in part, cost me a 13 year relationship, has impacted many family and friend relationships, has gotten me neat little labels like "Conspiracy Theorist."  Thats one of my favorites.

WHY in the world, would some random car salesman from Olympia Washington, who didn't care or have a clue about Global Finance, The Military Industrial Complex, Esoteric Wisdom, Knowledge, and Symbolism, The Federal Reserve, Politics in the 40 years leading up to 7-1-7, go from not knowing or caring, to being obscessed about these topics, and many others.

Here's the TRUTH folks.  Prior to 7-1-7 as long as I had lots of money in my pockets,  had a hot girl next to me, was driving a nice EGO driven automobile, had nice toys, etc, etc.... I did NOT CARE about people dying in War.  I didn't care what The Military Industrial Complex was doing, nor who it was affecting.  I didn't care about people in "third world countries" dying of disease and starvation.  As long as my children had the nice clothes, good food, and the latest greatest new toy, everything was Ok in my world.  In fact, after the "terrorists" blew up some buildings in New York City on 9-11-01, I was like many other "Patriotic" American men, and wanted to get back "in the fight".  I was ready to go kill as many fucking ragheads as I possibly could.  My idea of good foreign policy was to turn the Arabian Peninsula into a goddamn parking lot.  I was very, very angry.  Like many other Americans, I couldn't believe "they" would drive a few airliners into a few buildings, and kill 4000 or so of my brothers and sisters.  So I was ready to go kill as many of their brothers and sisters as I possibly could, until they got me.  My little brother had graduated from the United States Military Academy at West Point, and by "getting back in  the fight", I thought I could protect him. 

Growing up, I had always felt a bit different.  I was always a popular kid in school.  I was handsome.  I was a good athlete.  I loved Football, Wrestling, and Hockey.  I always had a pretty girlfriend, nice clothes, and the coolest, latest toy.  However, something was different.  I was unsettled much of the time.  Growing up with a little family trauma and drama, I sought out creative ways to alter my reality.  Alcohol and drugs did a good job of doing that.  In the end, those means of escape didn't work out so well, nearly cost me my life a few times, and I still felt, feel completely out of place in my current reality much of the time.

Then 7-1-7 happened, literally overnight.  I went from being an Ego Driven, Cock Driven, selfish douchebag, to ONLY caring about those things I had never cared about, studied, and considered in the entire previous 40 years of my life.  My Counselor/Life-Coach tells me he has NEVER seen a RADICAL "Shift of Consciousness/Awakening/Enlightenment" like mine.  It continues to this day.  Some days I feel like i'm living in complete bliss, and some days I want to stay in bed and cry.  I have been described as an "Empath, Intuitive, Psychic, Prophet, Lightworker," and many, many more.  I do not feel "normal", whatever that term means.  I do not feel normal in terms of societal norms, and mores. 

It was like being hit over the fucking head with a cinder block.  I started hearing voices.  In meditation I would be led down multiple paths of discovery and awareness.  When I meditated I would see things like rotating pyramids, "mason" symbols, The Eye of Horus spinning, BRIGHT PURPLE Angels, wings flapping in an almost slow motion fashion.  In meditation I would be visited by "Avatars and Ascended Masters" like Martin Luther King, Ghandi, John F. Kennedy, and many, many more.  I would be told, and intuitivelly led to RESEARCH such subjects as The Illuminati, The Mayan Calender,  The Federal Reserve, 9-11 Truth, Surpression of Cancer Cures, Energy Technology, Surpressed Alien Contact, False-Flag Terrorism and so much more.  In the prior 40 or so years of my life, leading up to 7-1-7, I HATED TO READ.  I enjoyed a few Authors.  Tom Clancy was one.  Stephen King was another.  I read "shoot em up non-fiction" from the Viet-Nam conflict.  I liked learning about LRRP (Long Range Reconnaisance Patrols/Ranger Companies) because they were the linneage of my LRSD (Long Range Surveillance Detachment) days in the US Army.  I would say in the 40 years of life prior to my Awakening, I probably read a total of 30 books for pleasure.  Most of these books were fiction.  Like most people, reading was a form of escapism, by living someone elses reality.  This happens with fictional literature, television, and video games.  I don't believe this is by mistake or coincidence.  We are a completely DISTRACTED people, BY DESIGN.

I will tell you that I shared this information with very few people.  When you tell someone that you were visited by Ghandi and a bright purple Angel in deep meditation the night before, people look at you funny, or think that you are full of shit.  Either that, or they recommend you see a Psychiatrist and get on some type of psychtropic medication.

I will tell you that what I experience on a day to day basis is sometimes very unnerving, sometimes scarry, and I do not feel like I fit in with the core of humanity at all anymore.  I believe that the core of humanity is very much asleeep.  They have no idea what "present moment awareness" is, and if you talk about meditation, they look at you funny.

About one month into my awakening, I bagan to notice, as I became more mindful of the "present moment", that when I got up in the midle of the night to pee, or to get a drink, or I felt like someone, or something had whispered in my ear, it would ALWAYS be a time like 11:11, 1:11, 2:22, and so on.  Not one day went by that this type of phenomena did not happen to me.  Not only was it ocurring on clocks, I was noticing the customers I "manifested or attracted" had similar birthdate patterns.  For example, 11-11, 1-11, 2-22, 5-156, 4-14, 8-8, 9-9 and so on.  I also noticed, and most poignant of all, that when I would hop into a car to move it, the time on the digital clock would be a similar pattern.  For expample, one day I was asked to move a car by a manager.  I hopped in the car and turned on the key, the time read 3:33.  But it wasn't 3:33.  It was just after opening in the morning.  Whenever this would happen, I would always look at my cell phone to see what the actual time was.  IT WAS HAPPENING EVERYWHERE, and ALL THE TIME.  I conducted a research project during a six month time period at one of my former dealerships.  I kept copies of "demo permits" of EVERY customer that test drove a car.  When a customer requests to test drive a car, they would have to produce a valid current drivers license, and valid-current insurance.  8 of 10 customers that I "attracted and manifested" fit the 11:11 type pattern. 

During this time, I also became accutely aware of "present moment awareness."  I began to notice things like thinking about a specific topic or subject, or pondering a specific subject, then hoppin g in the car, and listening to the first 30 seconds of the song playing on the radio.  I was AMAZED and BAFFLED how often what I heard coming from my car radio, would speak directly to what I had just been thinking about.  This happens to me in grocery store lines, bank lines, EVERWHERE. 

I "hear" what my girlfriend says, 15 seconds before the EXACT words come from her mouth

A few months into all of this, already thinking I was losing my mind,  I sat down at a computer, pulled up Google, and typed "1111"

What I began to discover and realize blew my mind.  There were "beings" all over the World,  on EVERY CONTINENT, from every Religion, Race, Socio-Economic bacground, etc, that were experiencing the EXACT same things.  This gave me some sense of relief.  I wasn't the only one going fucking nuts, there were alot of us.   More important, and to the point of this blog post, is that ALL OF US were being led down very similar paths of discovery and awareness.  Not only that, but ALL OF US reported a feeling of "dis-ease" and a feeling like we were being pushed and led, by some powerful unseen force, that WANTED US TO SEEK OUT this Wisdom, Knowledge, and Information, and SHARE IT WIDELY with Humanity.  So that is what I have been doing for the past 5.5 years of my life.

About 6 months into my personal journey, after a particularly meaningful meditation session, I was led to co-create a youtube video with my co-worker Mike Priebe.  I was told to share my "story" my life, my struggle with addiction, abuse, childhood trauma, etc.  I was told to talk about the 1111 Phenomena and how it had affected my life, and all the synchronicity I was experiencing.  I was told to talk about the various paths of discovery and awareness I was being led down.  I was told to write a book about my experience, my Awakening and Enlightenment and share my story. 

I was told that at some point I would be connecting with "others" like me, and that we would be helping others on their own journey of discovery and awareness, and that I would be sharing my experience strength and hope in order to inspire others to AWAKEN.  I was told that at some point, we would be helping others on a WORLD STAGE.

In making two, two part youtube videos, I have connected with hundreds of "us" from  all over the planet.  These individuals have sought me out, as somewhat of an expert in the meaning of the 1111 Phenomena.  These individuals are scared  and confused, just like me in many cases.  They don't understand whats happening to them or why it is happening to them.  What continues to amaze me is the FACT that ALL OF US are being led down the EXACT same paths of discovery and awareness.

As the 12-21-12 date draws nearer, I have seen and felt many things I saw and heard were going to happen come to pass. I do believe that humanity has been misled about our true nature and essence for a very long time.  I am very excited to see exactly what will happen as this Divine Plan continues to unfold.

I have been told that I was CRAZY....that I am a CONSPIRACY THEORIST.  I have been spit and and laughed at.  Lately I have had many days that I just want it all to go AWAY. 

Today was one of those days that I needed to get all of these feelings out of my head, and onto the paper.

Namaste...and thanks for reading.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

1111 and Percival Landing.

Easter Sunday was amazing this year. Tehya spent the night with me saturday night, the Easter Bunny came sometime during the night, she woke up to find a basket of goodies on the window sill. We got up and got ready to go. Shanna and I had made arrangements to take her to an easter egg hunt, out to breakfast, the farmers market, and maybe to a park downtown.

Its really quite harmonious to be able to spend time with my ex-partner, having gone through what we went through, and be kind to one another, hold no resentment and anger, ill will, etc... Not only is it good for both of our spirirts, but it is really good for Tehyas spirit. I see many divorced or seperated partners that do and say the most unkind things to each other, over Ego, anger, jelousy, and a whole myriad of other issues that we choose to make us, and each other miserable. I have just chosen not to participate any more. If I am to be the Peace and Loving Kindnes I claim to be, I must practice that with everyone.

So we did all those things and ended up at Percival Landing in Olympia, on the waterfront. Olympia is the southernmost point of the Puget Sound, a really ecclectic city, its downtown waterfront hosting loads of cool shops and restuarants. The people of Olympia are special in many ways. It is my home. I love it here.

As Tehya was playing on the toys, and Shanna and I were sitting on the bench, a man about my age, and his wife and kids showed up. He and his wife sat down, as his children ran off to play.

Moments later, after feeling hot in the afternoon sun, I got up off the bench, my back facing the man and woman sitting next to us, and pulled off my sweater. My T-shirts came up as well, exposing my lower back, and a few of my tattoos. My forearms were then uncovered, exposing a few more tattoos.

I turned around and the man said something like, "that is the coolest tattoo, I have ever seen." I looked at my forearms, then looked back at him saying something like, "which one?" He said, "the 11:11 in the center of your back."

Whenever this happens to me, time kind of stands still. I know that there are no accidents, and that life is lived in the present moment. It feels like I am living in a drea,. and in fact, I am living in a dream. So I introduce myself, I find out his name is Brett, and he is a Yoga Instructor in Seattle. I ask him why the 11:11 is significant to him, and he tells me some stuff that blows my mind. I have the opportunity to share my story, struggle, awakening and ongoing enlightenment.....and he shares his.

We probably spoke for about a half an hour. He even shared an amazing Cohiba Cuban cigar he had in his vehicle after I shared a synchronicity story that happened a few nights before, when I stopped at my local store for a cigar.

The most important and poignant part of his sharing is when he was talking about the intuitive process that brought him to downtown Olympia in the first place. He and his family were on their way back to Seattle from a trip to the Washington Coast. Something intuitivelly told him to come to downtown Olympia.

After speaking and exchanging contact information, we both agreed this encounter was why we had both come there.

I left Shanna and Tehya and headed over to my friends house. This person has been in my life for about a year and a half, and I love and care about her very much. Our relationship has been interesting. She is going through her own awakening process too.

Several nights before, I had been really wanting Lamb, but its really difficult to find Organic Lamb, that I know has been fed well, and has been put down humanely. I don't eat alot of meat anymore, and I really try to not put anything in my body, thats not good for it, or has alot of chemicals, fertilizers or hormones. My friend who I was spending Easter afternoon with also likes Lamb, so I was super excited when my neighbor who I hadn't seen in many months, stopped me right when I walked in our local store, and informed me he had just slaughtered a few lambs, for the easter holiday, and for food. His animals are fed and raised organically. He and his family carry a really good energy, I know they treat the animals well, and respect the fact that they sacrified so his family and other people they know could have good healthy meat.

My friend and I had an amazing time. We had Lamb, and a whole bunch of other good food, music, and amazing conversation. The day ended with me feeling really super blessed about all the amazing people, and synchronicity in my life.

Had I not gone through the pain I had gone through, I dont think I would have ever searched for clarity, and I don't think I would have ever discovered the absolute bliss of living in the Present Moment.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

The Sustainabilty Project

Very early on in my awakening experience, I felt an intense desire to create...or be a part of a self-sustainable community. I have had multiple dreams about this place. I have seen it in dreams and in meditation. Initially, I believe my being led to that "place" was fear based. In 2007 when this all began, I knew what was coming. I have been speaking about it to friends, family members, and anyone that would listen.

My want/desire to either create, or be a part of a collective/self-sustainable community was partially fear based. I knew/know that there was to be a complete collapse of all existing structures, before humanity could come together as one, and function from a higher level of consciousness, with the knowing that what we do today, affects everyone on the planet, and that those thoughts we have today, create tomorrows reality.

I envisioned a large piece of land, and many like minded individuals, living together, co-creating complete self-sustainability. No one "goes to work." Work involves working the land, raising the food and building materials, helping one another, and raising children in a completely harmonious and balanced environment, where the modus operandi isn't "what can I get from you", but rather "how can I be of service to you."

I know....I know.....visions of a hippie commune come to mind. Thats not my intention at all. What I hoped to create was a place where people could live and work and take care of one another, where there is no "going to work", leaving the kids at a day care, because the work is the land, and becoming self sustainable, and the "day care" and "school" are within the community. Everyone has a role. Everyone has worth. Everyone does their part, whatever that may be.

I have spoken to my Guru/Life Coach/Drug and Alcohol Counselor about my ideas for the past five years. He enlightened me to the fact that these type of communities are sprouting all over the place, with great success. He has been pushing me to "take the leap of faith" for the past 5 years, since my awakening began.

I FEEL deeply that we have become a very, very sick society. I believe many of us have it all twisted and backwards. We work 50-60 hours a week, so that we can take our kids on a week vacation once a year. We see our children an hour a night, if we are lucky. We are driven by material excess. We are programmed to consume...consume...consume. We are taught that the cooler and newer our "stuff" is, the more sucessful we have become. We don't know our kids, we don't know our spouses or partners, and 1 of 2 marriages fail miserably because we are stressed out, addicted, overworked, overburdened, and have lost touch with everything that really matters in seeking "stuff" that doesn't really matter at all. I'm sick and tired of it, and part of my awakening was a realization that I needed to do something for myself and my family so that I could "be the change" at a personal level.

Since this all began on 7-1-7 I see synchronicity in every area of my life. I don't take anything at face value. I believe there is a higher purpose in pretty much everything. This includes relationships, people I meet at work, conversations I hear, "things that "happen" to me on a regular basis that don't really happen to other people, etc, etc....Ad Infinitum. I found all this by living in a place called "The Present Moment."

I recently moved to a different area within my company. I started having regular conversations with one of my co-workers about whats "really going on" on this planet. He has just begun his own journey into discovery and awareness. He is being led down many of the paths I was "led" down early on in my awakening. There are no coincidences.

His girlfriends mom lives on the Big Island of Hawaii. I have felt a powerful spiritual connection to the Hawaian Islands for a very, very long time. I was stationed on Oahu when I was a young man in the Army. I have vivid dreams about the Islands, and I feel like I have been being led to go there to work and learn for quite some time.

Today, I got into a conversation with my "awakening" co worker. He is very seriously considering "unplugging", and selling everything except a backpack and some clothes, to move to the Big Island, to be part of a group of awoken/awakening people who like us, are tired of being a part of the status quo, and this runaway train that is about to crash head on, with another big train moving in the opposite direction. Like many of us, he "feels" and "senses" that something is terribly, horribly wrong, and he doesn't want to be a part of the madness anymore.

Immediatly I recognized the opportunity that I could become a part of this flowering community too. I was overwhelmed with excitement. I called my ex-partner and asked her if she would ever consider unplugging, to move to Hawaii, to be a part of a community of people that are trying to "be the change." Im very excited to see where this "thought" will take me/us.

Im tired of never seeing my kids. I'm tired of working so that someone else can "get rich." It doesn't resonate with me anymore. I feel a pretty constant state of "dis-ease" because I'm not doing what my soul has been telling me to do for almost 5 years now.

So, the next few months should be interesting. I will continue to listen, and learn. I will continue to pay attention to everything that "happens". I'm very ready to step off of this train, and have absolute faith that by following my intuition, everything will be very, very OK.....


Sunday, February 5, 2012

It has been a crazy, sad, stressful, synchronistic, rapidly changing experience. I love the people in my life that I run into every 7 years. When I asked for help to deal with addiction over 8 years ago, I turned myself in and ended up incarcerated. I ended up in a cell with a man who's story was very much like my own. Haven't seen him for 7 years. So tonight, on the way to my friends house I stopped to pick up a few things at a grocery store...I was turning the corner and and our eyes locked. He looked at me, and we acknowledged each other. My body started to tingle...we chatted briefly and exchanged information.....I don't look at those type of interactions as coincidence. I'm amazed each day.